What a let down...

Last Wednesday I was scheduled to be induced TODAY - I was given a little instruction sheet and told to call early in the morning, around 5:30 a.m. Well, I got up today, called at 5 a.m. and was told to call back at noon because they were very busy. So Brian got up and went to PT, I went back to sleep, got up when he got home at 7 and ate a bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats, then decided to call - just to check before Brian went to work - I was told that it wasn't going to happen today. The nurse said, "We're so busy, there's no way we'll get you in today, but we have your number if a bed miraculously opens up, but I wouldn't get my hopes up." I didn't say anything, if I had said anything it would have been DON'T GET MY HOPES UP!?!? SERIOUSLY?!?! THAT HAPPENED LAST WEEK, THAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY, THAT HAPPENED THIS MORNING - ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?! But from my pause she knew I was upset and says, "You can call midday to see if anything has happened, but...go ahead and eat a normal breakfast."

So now what? Unless this baby decides to come on her own, which just isn't happening, I won't get induced until they can pencil me in. Today was the day I was scheduled, does that mean I'm out of luck tomorrow with the other 20 women that were probably scheduled? Talk about bad timing to have a baby, and bad location...it's not like I can drive to a different military hospital - this is it and it's 45 minutes away. Brian said to keep calling today - we'll see if I have the nerve, perhaps I should go and sit in front of their desk - Hey, just a reminder that I'm still here, still pregnant, still swollen, still depressed. I didn't know you could be depressed even before the baby was born, but now we are not having the baby today and we are only going to have a potential 13 days with Mom and Molly.

Yesterday we had an appointment to do an NST, basically just to make sure that the baby is okay in there, and they did an amniotic fluid check on the ultrasound. There was a girl with her husband and mother - overdue, they couldn't fit her in yesterday to do her induction, weren't doing it today, and her Mom was leaving tomorrow. Very upsetting. What hospital only gives itself EIGHT delivery rooms?!?! And sticks it in a corner so that it is impossible to "take over" a few other hospital rooms when it needs to? On our labor and deliver tour they said that they were turning some of the recovery rooms into delivery rooms, but those rooms are on a completely different floor and side of the hospital. Anyhow, enough from me - no baby - very upset.